Isaiah 61:3 ….’the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness….’
“Father, I bless you…Father, I love you…I trust you God. You are faithful, you are sovereign….always omniscient….always worthy of praise.” Is this an example of my morning meditation? Words of adoration that I utter throughout the day? Yes, but more….these are words that I have said when I was bottled up with unrelenting pain…chest pain! I thought that I was dying of a heart attack. Who experiences deep, concentrated centralized pain in the middle of the night and it’s not a heart attack? Me! Why? Because I had experienced so much emotional pain and so much stress, that my mind was utterly overwhelmed and my body was just its pawn.
I am almost in tears as I type because I am taken back to that time in my life that I felt that I was so down, so low, so hopeless that I would die. What made the difference for me? In my fear and in my pain, I would call out to the only faithful and gracious God. Although sometimes immobilized with the fear of dying I reverted to what I knew which was deep in my heart…praise!!!
I needed to stop dwelling on my feelings of fear and the pain in my body and start focusing on the God who has never failed me yet…the God that is bigger than any problem….the God who has always kept me and never left me. Today, I stand here alive and well. I am a better person because of what I have experienced. Will pain come again?
Of course, but I will stick with what works…and that’s to Praise Him in my Pain!!!!
Don’t miss my other blog Niyoki’s Reflections: Joy And Pain Are Siblings To Blessings
Editor’s Note: Niyoki (Nie-yo-kee), an African name meaning “serious minded and responsible,” was given to her by her mother. Niyoki signed with Uncle G records this summer and will have new music coming out soon.
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